Monday, January 27, 2014


Went up instead of downdowndown.
But I lost about a quarter inch on my waist.
So who knows.

Yesterday ran two rehearsals from 9-11:30 am, then had brunch. Quinoa burger on bread (eww, should have skipped the bread) with hummus, lettuce, and tomato, steamed broccoli, and a small bowl of vegetable chickpea soup. Came back, had a short rehearsal/run-through of an upcoming show, then had a hummus sandwich on a bagel and an orange. Then a four-hour solo rehearsal, in the middle of which I had an orange, and I was done by 7:30 pm. Had spinach with carrots, lots of tofu, and tomato sauce for dinner, and a handful of pistachios as a snack afterwards.

Breakfast today was oatmeal (150) with peanut butter (200) a banana (90) and raisins (100) for 540.
The rest of the day is fruit (an apple and an orange, 135) and lentils (230) with couscous (90) for a total of 995. Might have more fruit than that, but not over 1200.
Today is an hour of ballet, an hour of modern, a pretty intense 2-hour rehearsal, then on my feet teaching for two hours, then running an hour-long rehearsal for a dance number in a theatre production. I'll probably burn about 1100 through activity.
(I know these intake numbers are high compared to what you girls are used to seeing, and that with a weight like what I'm at I have no business eating that much, but dance is my current job and hopefully my future career. I need to fuel enough to train properly.)

I haven't purged in over a week. I don't remember the last time, I just know that I haven't let myself because of the solo rehearsals. This piece is intense, and constant, and it's just me, and I absolutely can't let myself get dehydrated or wobbly or underfueled during it. I felt like I was going to pass out halfway through on Saturday, and when it's just you... that reads. I passed it off as tiredness from having turned in a thesis draft the day before (true) and the solo being hours 5-8 of rehearsal in a row that day (also true), but this choreographer is brilliant and connected and I need to be more impressive. I need to be better. Unfortunately, for now, that means food.

Hope you lovelies are doing well.
All my love,
--The Dancer


  1. Maybe you're building muscle? I really wouldn't be surprised with the amount of activity you do and your protein intake! Screw the scales, for today at least, if your measurements are shrinking you must be doing something right.

    Your intake really doesn't sound like a lot. I know it's much easier said than done, but please don't feel guilty about fueling your body. I'm certain you'll still lose a lot, you're so active it truly blows my mind and you need a sustainable diet to do that. There'd be nothing worse than under-fueling yourself and potentially blowing a chance with your dancing, or injuring yourself in some way. It sounds like you've been eating really clean, and congrats on not purging!

    Take care love. Hope you have a fantastic week <3 xx

  2. ^there we go. i am amazed by the amount of activity you do by the way.
    dude, your dancing is just and your exercise is just and wow and i'm just so amazed.
    fuck. you are wow.
    aw. Bella just about made me tear up with her comment. she is so bloody adorable.
    you are an ambitious amazing person. omg.
    also, 137.2. not bad at all.
    i love you. take care. yes, like she said - have a fantastic week.

    <3 <3 omg i love you

    -Sam Lupin