Thursday, July 11, 2013

Wasted

7:30-8:30 am: 1 hour on the elliptical.
9 am: 1/3 cup oats with 1 tbsp peanut butter, a peach. 260 cal.
10:15-12:15: Dance.
12:30 pm: 1/2 red bell pepper, 1 carrot, 1/2 cucumber, 2 tbsp hummus, 1/3 cup soy nuts. 262 calories.
1:30-3:15 pm: Dance.
3:45-5:45 pm: Comp class. Lots of walking around.
6:30-7:40 pm: Pita chips with hummus, bagel with cucumber, chocolate peanut butter soy ice cream. Purged. All gone.
Other exercise: 25 push-ups, 160 crunches. 3 sets each.

Intake (kept down): 522 cal, 26 g protein.
Exercise: -1454.

Started rereading Wasted. It's been over a year since I read it for the first time, and I love it. Marya is brilliant and incredible and I cannot fucking believe that she published Wasted when she was 23. What the hell. What the actual hell.

If anyone hasn't read it, or wants to reread:
http://www.scribd.com/doc/33540334/Wasted-A-Memoir-of-Anorexia

Also, I really, really wish I could/would take up smoking. I want to. I just desperately want to smoke instead of eat. Smoke and cut and drink and dance, and that's it. But I'm afraid to take up smoking. Afraid to tar my lungs up more. Afraid that it'll make me a worse dancer. Alas.

1 comment:

  1. (ok i'm going through your blog right now, so beware of late comments)

    oh dear i went through that period of time when i wanted to pick up smoking. i did for a little bit but it is NOT worth it. if anything, it's expensive. and yes, i believe it would jeopardize your dancing more than help it through weight loss.

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