Sunday, December 15, 2013

I've been here before...

What's the correct thing to do when you've hit a new low weight? Why, binge it all away, of course.
7000 calories on Wednesday. I didn't purge, because I was going to Beat Purging.
More binging on Thursday. I didn't purge, because I was going to Beat Purging.
Friday morning, a weight that shall not be named. No food all day, just coffee and sugar-free vanilla lattes, then Chinese takeout for dinner. I finally purged. Then more of the same. I purged three times on Friday.
I purged once yesterday. Sort of. I tried. Not much but water and bile came up, which makes absoltely no sense.
Then I ate 350 calories of junk in the evening. Good life choices, obviously.

Back up/down to 134.2. I've been here before. It's not as bad as it could be, but it's not as good as I was. Hoping for 133.? tomorrow, 132.? on Tuesday, 131.? on Wednesday when I go home. Just downdowndown. Always downdowndown.

Down, down, down
On my own
Come on, hang the devil's son
I'll die alone

Stay strong, lovelies.

--The Dancer

1 comment:

  1. I've been purging a lot recently too. Like I tell myself I'm over that bullshit then I do it again, and again, and again. It's absolutely ridiculous. Wanna be buddies and beat this purging crap together? ^_^