K stayed with me for a bit. She got here around 3 on Tuesday and just left a couple of hours ago. She was supposed to be here from yesterday (Wednesday) through tomorrow (Friday), but there was a storm warning for yesterday, so she came a bit early. Which unfortunately meant that I didn't get to weigh in yesterday morning or workout yesterday or Tuesday. (Unless you count sex. Which, for the sake of not feeling like a completely sedentary lardball, I will.)
(K was here for a total of 45 hours. Total intake while she was here? Two coffees with soymilk and a bagel with hummus and vegetables, four hard ciders. Plus a b/p session between the dance classes I taught on Tuesday that she doesn't know about. All in all, she does excellent things to my ability to restrict.)
...but then she left and I had an interview that I didn't want to be loopy for so I had couscous with carrot and tomato and an apple. But then, y'know, that opened the floodgates. Had another serving of couscous and a clementine.
If I left it at that for the day and went to the gym later, that would be acceptable, but I feel a binge coming on. Of course my list of things to binge on includes the following: frozen spinach, frozen broccoli, lentils, flax wraps, tomato, carrot, cucumbers, clementines, sweet potatoes, and walnuts. Not sure how much damage I could manage with only those things. I guess if I ate all three sweet potatoes and the entire bag of walnuts.
(There's also a vending machine downstairs, but I'm trying not to think about it.)
Ugh, What I want are salt and vinegar chips and like five of those single-serving cherry pies and no-bake peanut butter and chocolate chip cookies.
These bitches. Why are they vegan? HOW are they vegan?
When my anorexic influence is gone, I turn right back to b/p.
Disgusting.
(But it makes me thinner, so hey, who gives a fuck, huh?)
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--The Dancer
I find it really interesting that the both of you struggle with EDs. I couldn't even begin to imagine what that's like. Does it cause much drama at all, or competitiveness? I had a hard enough time when my (non-ED) ex lost weight, or wanted to eat healthier, or went through exercise phases.
ReplyDeleteSex totally counts as cardio, as long as you got your heart rate up ;P
Hah, I love the cherry pie packaging, with the faintest "with other natural flavours". I'm betting they're like 0.5% cherry :P
Hope you have a wonderful weekend <3 xx