After "dinner" (spinach and tomato) I binged on an almost-full box of Poptarts (not vegan, by the way. I suck.) amongst other things.
And my mom noticed they were gone.
And she asked if I knew where they were.
And I said no, because she KNOWS they're not vegan, and if I had admitted to eating them, she would know something was up, and anyway I had literally JUST gotten done purging (with shower as cover), so yeah, no.
And I know it was stupid to eat them because they're not something I would normally eat and I'm an only child so obviously they think I'm the one that's lying (except not, because I've been vegan for 8 years and I "wouldn't eat something that had an animal product in it!") and they're still looking for them and commenting on how weird it is and they WON'T LET IT GO.
I'm shaking. I'm about to fucking cry.
What if they find out?
What if everything unravels because of this fucking box of poptarts?
I'm such a fucking idiot.
If I had better self control, I wouldn't have binged in the first place.
And now it's going to destroy everything.